Friday, April 15, 2016

The Journey



8 months ago..
A journey to a 6 years relationship ended.
It happen to be on an afternoon of mid August where a person finally take the courageous to face it .

It just happen where i couldn't handle it anymore since the day it first happened and realized things started to fall apart between everything .

So ya, first time being dump felt SUCKS !! 
and ya, it's the first relationship duhhh
Didn't know how to cope with it .
Didn't have someone to talk to, or actually just wouldn't wanna talk to anyone about it . So i didn't really speak to anyone about the incident nor my family and sisters.

But as well they realized there are something wrong or weird happening to me as for my colleagues where most of them we meet each other from working hours till after works. We don't talk about it but just hanging out keeping each others around =)






Spending most of the times and days by the beach . Just laying around , drinking, eating, playing around and played our own music as well ... 



can you really imagined that ? 
traveling for an hours to get to beach, spend hours just doing nothing and laying down on the sand , listening to the sound of the waves, gazing through the sky for the only stars till it's like 3-4AM most of the nights ? continuously for weeks...


Thanks to them who are really there by my side through this ups and downs. 
Encourage me and being understanding even without needing me to speak a word.
I learn a lot in the years and by the time everything fall off.
I have learned to be so independent and self-sufficient to convince myself i don't need you in my life.


In between times, i met so many peoples .
People who cares

People who give me strengths 

People who just don't give a damn
People who really pissed me off
People who b'tch around who just couldn't keep their f'cking mouth shuts.

Ya, sometimes you do really pissed me off and the only things i kept in mind are stay honest to myself and just keep silent so i don't give a damn on what you did, and hopefully you would just shut the f'ck up and stop throwing shits on others people.
You're just gonna make things more hard on the both of you seriously, not me.


So you see, lets be honest..
i don't react on your mean post and moment. 
And you're there creating more and more post and anger on what we did on you, like really? Seriously?
like playing innocent?    eventually everyone are innocent for your information. just don't over react on it my dear..
Ya , thanks for adding me by social network and showing it up to me.
It hurts sometimes but by times passed , it meant nothing to me anymore. 
Sometimes i miss the moment we had , i recalled back what could be ours. But then i will still realize , 
LIFE MOVE ON dear~ f'ck yeah~ 

We heard so many of your past moments and really, i don't judge you by that because i don't really know you in person . People change from times to times, that's what people do. People stop growth physically at age but not mentally. am i right?

Moving on ,
this would be the first and only post where i talk about you .
A post to express my anger and depressed months ago, hahaha .
Not here to say how terrible or kind a person would be.
People ain't being perfect .
=)







Thanks to you all my love <3 u="">